Spring Break

Spring Break, was definately interesting.  For the most part I have my paper work together for the medical board, still waiting on a doctor.  Friday night I did letters for lyrics at the Zach Brown Band concert at Clemson.  That was so much fun!!! and I didn't comletely loose my hearing :)  Saturday I went to Biltmore and got to see my two most favorite flowers: Tulips and hydrgeneas, I was in heaven :)  and then I saw this video, it's beautiful and made me think about Uncle Fred (so naturally I started crying, hopefully I'll stop soon)

Spring

Spring is here, pollen is in the air, and I'm in the mood to make Easter cards!  My spring cleaning is about 25% of the way finished!  I've brought out my spring cards stuff and put most of my winter card stuff up.  Next week I get to sub in JROTC and then next Saturday is the JROTC softball tournament.  I can't wait.

Teaching and other stuff

2 hours is not long enough for the PRAXIS I barely finished my test Saturday.  They called time half-way through my last sentence.  :) I've also decided to give the National Guard a shot, if they'll have me.  I'm getting all my medical stuff together and should know if they'll take me or not the beinning of April.  That's also about the time I'll know if I passed the test I have to take to teach in SC.

What has this country become?

Ok, I ask this question not expecting an answer, but I have to...What kind of a society have we become? So this is the second time I have been in a particular class with "children" (Seniors in high school actually) who refuse to even be quiet when the pledge is being said and we have a moment of silence, let alone actually stand up and say the pledge.  And when I have said something to them about why they don't they don't even answer respectfully.  I'm not sorry for my attitude about this, and maybe I'm different, but that boils my blood and really ticks me off.  Are you ready for the kicker, the two JROTC cadets in the class, one of whom is going in the Marines, wouldn't even stand up and gave me the same displeased attitude and body language the rest of the class did.  Maybe it's because I've lost family members in a war and I know a lot of military people, but I feel this type of behavior is simply intolerable. Is there anyone not related to the military that has pride in this country any more? Personally, I've lost almost all my respect for these students and people like them. My great uncles might have died so they could be disrespectful, but I sure don't have to like it at all! And I invite everyone like them to move to Lybia.

Choices

Life is so full of choices :) I love subbing at the high school and I'm really excited about getting to add Social Studies to my teaching certificate, but I have a job interview with health and human services next week and that's a good option too.  Commander introduced me to the National Guard recruiter today and told him I'd make a good officer and we talked a little about that.  Commander thinks it would be good for me and I have to agree.  I do have reservations, but it's something I'm seriously considering and praying about.  It's almost funny how many doors God has opened up for me just in the past week.  I'm eager to see which ones are going to close and which ones are going to stay open.  Pray for me to know what to do, these aren't decisions I can make lightly.

My Valentine, Lt. John "Flip" Cowger

Tuesday will be one year since my Valentine died :( I did pretty good through the holidays, especially Valentine's Day, but the past few days I guess it really hit me that he's gone.  I miss talking to him, even if it was listening about the VA hospital and what he was going thru.  He lived through a lot and is in a much better place now.  I hope I can make it thru Tuesday at school.  I believe he'd be really happy to know I'm back at school and I'm making good head way into getting my certificate to teach again.  I like to think that he's up in Heaven with Uncle Fred smilling down knowing I'm so happy right now after all that's what they gave their lives for :)  I never got to know Uncle Fred, but Flip was such a Blessing to me in college and up thru last year.  He was always supportive and encouraging to me in everything I've done from my Senior Thesis at Lander to my struggles with being single.  I call him my Valentine because he told me I didn't need to worry about being single on Valentine's Day, he'd be my Valentine :)  I really miss my Valentine, and this is my favorite picture of them.

Flip is 2nd from left on the top row;

Uncle Fred is the last person on the right on the top row

Good News?

I have a job interview in two weeks.  I'm not going to get too excited so I won't be disappointed if I don't get it.  I have no idea what job God wants me to have, but we shall see what happens :) I guess I'm afraid that now that things are starting to look up they won't change and I'll just have gotten my hopes up for no reason.  I can't wait until I do get a job, I miss grocery shopping and cooking :(  I'm off to write some letters now.

First Project of the Year

I've decided to make a cookbook.  It seems kind of pointless to try to remember where all my favorite recipes are and how I've changed them.   I need to cut down on fast food, junk food, and sugar; the last time I cut all those out I lost a little over 10 pounds in 3 weeks.  My panic attacks weren't as bad either.  I've just been having cravings for Dr. Pepper, Chocolate, and greasy, fating food; all of which I do not need.  Now I'll have something I can focus on when I start to panic, food lol

I've started by making my recipe cards and I have my collection of favorites ready to write.  My problem however is I have no idea what kind of book I want to put them in; binder, 8 1/2 x 11 scrapbook or 12 x12 scrapbook,  or some type of file box.   I've been thinking something like these, but a little bigger.

More Organizing :)

One of the things that helps me re-energize after being around a lot of people is to make things, like cards.  So today I've been re-arranging my craft supplies so I can have them in a quiet room so I'll have everything I need when I need time to myself.  They have been in three different rooms for lack of space :(  I should be finished tomorrow :)  I also have a pretty good start on flowers for some of my valentine cards.   I am having problems getting ideas for cards for guys, some cards I have seen that I like I don't have what I need to make them.  Right now the soldier I've adopted is a girl so I don't really have to worry about that right now.  Below is a picture of some of the things I made this summer when I needed alone time, as I call it :)

The only "bad" thing about my marker container is it can only hold 8 markers, right now it's stocked with Valentine colors.

My Resolutions for 2011

1. Set my priorities for the year
2. Learn to control my SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder) and not let it control me
3. Not worry as much
4. Make new friends
5. Live in the present, look toward the future, remember the past (in that order)
6. Get in shape for the 2012 Disney World Marathon
7. Find a new way to help someone